How Eli changed my life

14 Feb

Or beloved son Elijah Thomas Heim died on November 6th 2009 when he was two and a half months old.  The doctors are not sure what the cause of death was and so they concluded it was SIDS.  I have my own ideas and theories but I will save those for another post. 

I remember telling my friends and family while Eli was still on this earth with us that I was so in love with him and that I often found myself just staring at him.  This was surprising to most because Eli was my third baby and I really did not have “time” to just sit and stare at him.  I remember people telling me “I don’t even remember my third as a baby, I was so busy taking care of all three that it went so fast in a blur.”  I thought that would happen with me too, but for some reason that I did not know at the time it was not like that.  I loved just being with Eli.  I wanted to be near him all the time.  I was so in love!  I remember loving my other children, but this was a different experience all together. 

It has been over a year since Eli died and I am still so sad and part of me is still empty.  Eli was such a beautiful baby and will forever be a part of me.  I know now that my intoxicating love relationship with Eli was God’s way for me to know his goodness and beauty that only Life can bring about. 

Since Eli’s death I have never been more certain about how much God loves me, how much God loves all of his people, and how God creates each of us for a purpose.  My faith walk and passion for the pro-life movement have been so intensified from Eli.  Eli gave me such a wonderful gift and everyday I am trying to grow closer in Christ. 

For that Gift…I thank God for Eli, and for my entire family. 

Closing prayer: I pray that you as my reader will come to understand that God has created you to do wonderful things.  I pray that Eli can touch your heart and desire for God as he has done to both Greg and myself.  Amen.


Posted by on February 14, 2011 in Uncategorized


5 responses to “How Eli changed my life

  1. Mr WordPress

    February 14, 2011 at 1:15 am

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  2. Dale Noel

    February 14, 2011 at 2:59 am

    You, Greg, and Eli have touched me more than you can imagine. Thank you.

    • rememberingeli

      February 14, 2011 at 7:06 pm

      We felt such love the day that Eli died from our church family. Having you sit, grieve, listen, talk, and pray with us was so awesome and just what we needed. Thank you!

  3. nmcdonal

    February 14, 2011 at 11:44 am

    Hi Tiffany, What beautiful thoughts. Thank you for sharing. I only met Eli once, but I will always remember him and look forward to the day when I meet him again. He short life here has touched the lives of many people.

  4. Sabreena K

    February 14, 2011 at 5:27 pm

    Thank you for Sharing Eli’s story. It is amazing how such a small person could have touched and changed so many people’s lives. I can honestly say that he completely changed my family’s lives and our way of thinking. Thank you God for Eli and his beautiful family for teaching us what is truly important.


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